Archive for the ‘Poetry’ Category

July 24, 2011

I come to the garden to be with you.

You’re here,

Not here,

But I’m here for you.

We speak a language of daisies,

Violas and golden bells.

My flowers blossom where my belly should be

And I grow my love for you still.


June 24, 2011

I am lying, wakeful,


Thinking melodramatic and hyperbolic thoughts,


Heart full, eyes empty.

I should be able to cry for you.

For me.

24.05.11 Poem
May 24, 2011

This was my debut.

I wasn’t aware there were rules- guidelines


For what to think and feel,

What to show and what to hide.

Mustn’t make others uncomfortable.

Some have it so much worse.

Get some perspective girl!


Should I be blank and all


Like the countless hands

On me and

In me?

I’m not.

This was my debut

Into baby loss.

I don’t want to get better at it.

May 18, 2011

I bought a book today, an anthology of poems about loss. There’s a poem by David Gray about dying young, and a part of it just seems so perfect to describe your tragedy.


”                                             The overture

To stifled music; year that ends in May;

The sweet beginning of a tale unknown;

A dream unspoken; promise unfulfilled;

A morning with no noon; A rose unblown-

All is deep rich vermillion crushed and killed

I’ th’ bud by frost”


Mine was not the only loss. Mine was terrible, but yours is the greater. 

12.05.11 Poem
May 12, 2011

Unable to grasp

That this

Is me.


For a world lost.

A world of tiptoeing calm,

Of anguished, urgent cries,

Of frustration, guilt, panic and

Deep untouchable contentment.

I wanted to know nothing

And learn everything.

To be taught by you.

I wanted it all.

We were to be a trio.

A triad.


I feel less now; diminished.




Irretrievable, irrecoverable, irrevocable.

I lost you.

I’m sorry.